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In four days I will be a CCA graduate! I am so stoked about it, but not because I am graduating (it still hasn't sunk in yet). Rayna will be making a trip out here just to see me graduate because she never got to see me graduate high school. I am so excited I can hardly contain it!!! I miss her sooo much...

On the topic of Rayna... she just started her LJ account! I would like to take this time to say: Welcome Rayna to the wonder that is LJ! I hope you like it here as much as I do! To everyone else: if you know my sister, feel free to add her as a friend! If you don't know her, make her your friend, or I'll beat you!!!! Ahem... just kidding! Ich liebe dich, Rayna!

I didn't really get to celebrate my birthday since both my parents went out of town and I had to work and go to school that day... so my parents are going to celebrate my graduation and my birthday all in one event! I usually don't get too excited about gifts or whatnot because I don't really ask for anything, but this year I am filled with anticipation because my parents have been unusually secretive about it! They won't really give me a hint, and they discuss when to present me with my "gifts" in front of me as if I wasn't even present! For example: I was sitting in the living room and they were standing in the kitchen. They said things like:

Mom: "What day should we give Ashleigh her gifts?"
Dad: "I don't know, either Friday or Saturday."
Mom: "I think Ashleigh is gonna love it!"
Dad: "I think she will too..."

And I say, "Hey! You know I can hear you right?!"

And they nod and laugh!

They've never really done this before, so I am puzzled!

Anyway, I never really put thought into what I would do once I graduate. I mean, I have to wait a year before I can go back to school, but I never pondered what I could do with my free time! So... I made a list of things I wanted to do when I am not at work or chillin with my few friends:
  • Try to complete the many PS2 games I own... many of which I have had for two years now and haven't even opened :(
  • Get back into quilting-->I must get more audio books if I want to take this seriously
  • Finish my cross-stitching
  • Read more of the many Dean Koontz books I own
  • Make a fur suit! I think I can do it, but I might need some advice/ help o.O

these are a few goals I have set, but they are subject to change LOL

You all have a great night and stay safe!!! =^^=
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towlie

Damn I'm an idiot LOL

So I was reading my past entries... I have to say I am quite astonished at how morbid they have been getting. I know it is an online journal, and journals are meant for venting, but really? It makes it seem like nothing good has been happening to me, which is totally not the case! So this post is going to be about nothing other than positive things, even if it is a bad topic, I will turn it positive! :D

My birthday a couple Thursdays ago started just like any other day, didn't really feel like a birthday, until after my LIT class at 8:40 that night. One of the guys in my class told me to hop in his truck and he was going to buy me a drink saying, "Nobody should be alone on their birthday!" Dan is a wonderful guy and I am glad to say he is my friend! He sure knew how to make me feel special =^^=

I have successfully completed all of my training required for new hires with my bank. I got A's on four of my tests, and a high B on one of them. It was a grueling three weeks of training, but my paycheck will reflect all of that work. I am so happy to be working for a place that actually cares about its employees and wishes for them to succeed. Now that I am out of training, I will be bumped back down to 20 hours a week, but I have been able to pick up an additional 16 hours or so just by asking around and such. I have already received an offer by a manager of another branch to be interviewed for a full-time position. Not sure if I can do it since I haven't been with the company for six months, but I am honored that she likes me enough to want me to work permanently at her branch. The drive would be kinda far, but the extra hours would make it worthwhile. At least for now, she has given me about two extra shifts at her branch, plus my regular hours at my branch. I love my bank <3

School is interesting lately. I only have a couple more weeks then I'm free, but I actually don't want it to end. I'm going to miss CCA and I wish I had one more semester, ya know? Anyway, I graduate on May 8th, full honors and all. I even bought my tassels and the key from Phi Theta Kappa! It was expensive but totally worth it. I had to tap into my leftover taxes to help with that LOL

Moving plans kinda fell through, but I guess all is well in that area. I realized that even though my parents are living their own lives, they really aren't interrupting mine, and should be happy I can live here pretty much rent-free. I have everything I need right now. I will move out ON MY OWN if I get a full-time position at my bank, but that is not something I'm really planning for in high-hopes... though it would be nice to get $2,000 a month. Wouldn't have to depend on anybody else but me then!

So I guess I have a secret admirer from the store my branch is located at. I went to work the other day and there was a yellow happy birthday balloon and a card with my name on it. None of my co-workers knew who it was either because it was there before they opened. I have an idea who it might be, but I'm not going to worry about it too much. At this moment I'm not really interested in dating anymore, but its nice to know somebody thinks about me :)

So I have to finish my exam tonight for my business class... wish me luck!
tora/eido

Homework is officially more than work...

I cannot understand why my homework takes me so long to do. It doesn't seem like much at first glance, but with all the little details that are attached to it, I don't have enough time... I mean I look at the clock and an hour has gone by without me even making a dent in my workload. Hopefully I can finish before class starts tonight. I finished my reading thankfully, now I am working on a travel journal... I just think its dumb that I didn't take an art class, yet my teacher wants me to draw... ugh.

Anyway, I'd better get back to it, or else I won't get done and that would not be a good thing to present to my class tonight...
whatever, yeah

Repo! and monies

Fantastic Repo! rehearsal tonight. We were so focused we didn't even realize how late it got till Jim said, "uh... guys, its 1:30." I have so much fun at those that I forget all the things that have been stressing me out. Then I get home...

Had to pay $75 for license renewal. Paid $45 on credit card bill... Paid $250 on school cuz loan hasn't gone through yet >.< That's a whopping total of $370! My bank accounts are almost completely drained now. I still haven't paid my $140 loan payment that I shouldn't even worry about paying due to my current enrollment in school. I wish lenders and schools would communicate better. But its okay. As of right now, I have only $600 left to pay in this semester's classes plus books, but I have no idea the cost. I should look those up now o.O

So... even though I am extremely low on cash, I am going to bed happy and healthy. Friends make the stupid things in life much more tolerable.
tired

Contemplations and Findings

Had a long thought today about things. Wondering about my life, my family, my friends, my career, my education... general things that one must think about eventually. This led me to realize something extremely important.

I am me.

Simple as that. No matter what hell I have been through in my life, I am here. I am alive. I am breathing. I am happy (excluding recent events). I am me.

There is no other "me" in the world. Nobody equal to the existence that defines me. I am my own Tigger. I have similarities to others, but just as they are their own person, so am I.

The most interesting thing about that is the fact that I am me partly because of me. I decided to do certain things in my life. I decide how to act a certain way, I decide to dress my way, I decide where my life is headed. Nobody makes my decisions for me. Nobody tells me who I should hang out with or who to love.

I guess in a way, I had an epiphany today while I went over past events. I realize now that our lives are inevitably controlled by ourselves. I know some events cannot be controlled, but how we react to those events or overcome them, makes us who we are. I am glad I smile. Glad to have wonderful friends I choose to surround myself with. Glad to have such a wonderful family. Glad to have my life.

I'm glad I am me
paws up

I'm afraid of the dark...JK :D

So... I'm here at Natalie's house... typing this blog. I am so glad I can be here and help here while she is frustrated with her boyfriend. This is what friends are for :D

We established that I can finally call her at three O'clock in the morning if I need her help... even if I have to call multiple times for her to even answer LOL

SO I had a great time at the movies last night with the whole group. We should do that again (maybe more scary movies cuz going in groups is more fun than being alone). PLUS that is the only group I know of that enjoys scary movies as much as I do.

Anyway, i am being a rude guest by posting this blog on her computer, so i am going to post L8R. Love Ya!!
tired

Kinda Tired and Such...

Today has been one of the longest and hardest days I've had in a long time. Going on very little sleep and very little food does that to ya I guess. Yet, this day has also been pretty cool.

It started out with getting up early for work. I slept through my alarm clock for the first twenty minutes it went off, good thing I set it to go off an hour before I have to be at work ;)
Clocked on at work at 7 to find the produce department looking pretty cleaned out, yet looking nice after David Myers worked on it all night. That's when I kicked my stocking gears into overdrive and I finished working through the previous load before the new one even arrived.

I broke down all the pallets that came in on the load, and I worked three six-wheelers full of product in produce alone. My boss even had me work in dairy for an hour in which I worked a full six-wheeler of cheese and such.

I didn't get a lunch so I got to leave work a half hour early :D

I came home and had a sandwich and some yummy Baby Bell Bonbel cheese mmmmmmm. I watched an episode of Big Bang Theory (Awesomeness!!!!) and Dirty Jobs before I passed out on the couch. I woke up with a pain in my back, but I felt a tad rested.

Had a missed call from Heather, so I called her back. I picked her up at around 8 and we went to Target. Good times LOL. After that, we went back to her house (at around 9:30) and decided to go for a walk. I took along my ipod and a pair of headphones. We ended up dancing and singing around her block twice (its a big block) before we stopped...we were so tired. That was the craziest walk I have ever been on in my life!

I went back to work after that to return some date stickers that I accidentally pilfered from the produce desk. Grabbed some toothpaste and a couple movies so I could try to make it through another night before my overnight shift. I arrived home at around 11:20

I went on my computer and decided to finally work on a now retired co-worker's gift. I am typing up some "Words of Wisdom" this co-worker wrote everyday she came into work to help brighten everybody's day. I spent about two and a half hours on it and hardly made a dent in the pile, though my list is already two and a half pages long O.o

I started getting tired then, so I looked online to watch Glee due to Strill and Nev's influence. Thanks guys, I owe you a lot, I am now completely addicted!

Well, it's 2:30am now, so I think I'm gonna go to bed...and I haven't even watched my new movies yet! Maybe I can watch just one more episode of Glee though >.> Hopefully me going to bed this early in the night will not hinder my work performance tomorrow night... I hate tags now

Gr'night everyone!